When I began writing this blog many years ago it was going to be about my experience with gastric bypass surgery. I wanted to document every aspect of it so that others could learn from my experience as I was learning from other people's blogs about the surgery. As time went on I began writing about far more things either related to the surgery or just about life in general. This blog was my therapy for so long.
Once I had plastic surgery I actually went back into "real" therapy pretty hard core and my need to write diminished. I was working out my problems with a real live human being so why wax rhapsodic all over again in my blog? What I have found, though, is that I miss it sometimes. There's something so marvelous about putting my fingers on the keyboard and letting all of the shit in my head pour into them. Life has gotten complicated as of late and maybe I wil find myself here, writing about the craziness. Maybe not. Who knows.
I do know that today I am attempting to reign in my weight. I have creeped about 15 pounds above what I know is the best weight for me and I am 25 pounds from this elusive number that has haunted me since I was in high school. I know I shouldn't obsess over that damned number but I do. I found myself coming to my blog to get grounded again and have a place to bitch and moan about dieting and all it's yuckiness. I am however in a completely new place when it comes to exercise which is AWESOME if I say so myself. I will make a seperate post about that because it truly is in a totally different category for me now.
Anyway, today I am beginning the kickstart portion of the CarbLovers Diet. I am doing this with my friend, H and two Twitter/Facebook friends. I know that I am not going to follow it to a T because I AM going to use some artificial sweeteners and I am most likely going to add a snack or two here and there, however, I am going to do my damndest to follow it as best I can. I also can't drink which is probably a great thing for me since I need to break my emotional dependence on that. So there it is. I am laying it out there... I am committing to this plan for a week.
Just saying it makes me crank up a good nervous sweat.