I went to a funeral today. It was the first funeral I've been to in a long time. A close family friend had passed away and I adored this woman and her family. When I moved into my first apartment 9 years ago I so wanted her to come to my place to show it off to her and I never did and ever since I got the news that she had died I kept berating myself for not having her to my first home. She was such a lovely woman... such a caregiver and nurturer and my god will she be missed. Sweet sweet Mary... I hope you are free of your illnesses now.
I've felt very melancholy this week- some from knowing Mary had died, but there is more and I don't know why. For the first time in my life I am dating and enjoying it. I have three men calling me. THREE. And two of them think I am the greatest thing since sliced bread. My job is great, as is my home. My family is healthy and I have fantastic friends. So why am I sad? I always find it interesting to see when sadness comes. It usually surprises me as it has this time.
I know it will pass and as long as I appreciate all the goodness that I have I know I will be ok.
I am so sorry to hear about Mary. She was a treasure. I'll call you today.
Posted by: W | November 14, 2005 at 09:13 AM