Let me tell you about WLS. Though you think you have prepared in every possible way for the way your life will change and no matter how much self-help work you have done, and no matter how much therapy you have experienced, let me tell you....
Your whole world changes. Sometimes against your will.
People notice you when two years ago I was nothing. Just when you think you have confidence it's gets knocked out of you much like a punch to the gut. Suddenly you are thrust into the world of male/female relationships that are radically different than the ones you knew before. I know that seems silly, but truly, roles change. Things change.
All I know is I'd like to ball up and hide for awhile. I so badly want a connection with another human being that is not a friend, but alas, it keeps eluding me, much like alot of women, but damnit, I think I am special somehow... why I don't know. And wouldn't you know it, right now, when I need someone's shoulder, not one person is answering their phone.
Ain't that always the way.
Then again, maybe they are simply tired of me. God knows, I would be.
Wow--it's like you took the words out of my mouth. It's so hard/weird getting used to this new attention. I feel like I'm living the life now at 26 that all my friends lived when they were 21...which also puts me in a strange position because they're all in some ways beyond this and I'm just now enjoying it.
Posted by: Shelley | April 14, 2006 at 07:48 AM