Yep, it's true. Let me give you the scoop...
I have worked out with trainers on and off for years, even at 400 pounds. Sometimes I would work out three times a week with a trainer. Did it feel good? Yes, it did. Did I notice any change? Only with one particular trainer. She was amazing and I worked out with her long enough to recognize changes in my strength. I will always be able to feel my muscles growing or changing but due to extra skin I will never really be able to see them and you know what? I am completely ok with that.
Over the many years I have always read or heard that exercise could really improve depression and I thought that was the biggest lie known to man. I would work out and feel nothing. Until now. For the first time since I was 18 years old I am not on any anti-depressants. A few months ago I convinced my friend B to hire a trainer with me and we began going twice a week and I noticed an improvement in my mood. WTF? Wait a minute! You mean exercising really does help my mood!? I had no idea!
It seems that all the years I was medicated I could not get that true endorphin rush that exercise provides normal people. I have now been off meds since July of last year and WOW, now I understand it all! I realized that for a couple of days after a good workout I would emotionally feel better, so I decided to begin walking the pups around the block every day. Then I began walking a half mile a day and I am now up to 3.5 miles on most days. It's completely and utterly life altering. Due to family crisis I have not done as well as I'd like for the past two weeks and I miss it. I have never missed exercise a day in my life and I am actually longing for it. I had no idea I was capable.
So I am an exercise convert. And now I am trying to diet again and am on day 2 of the CarbLovers intro. I'm doing ok and I admit to not following to the T but I am following the basic menu plan and veering off when needed. I veered off mightily tonight by having a salad with one tbsp of light dressing and two tbsp of gorgonzola, however, I am still about 800 calories lower than my usual diet. Everything is an imrovement to what I have been doing. I figure as long as I don't eat copious amounts of chocolate, drink large quantities of wine, and limit my bread intake I will lose weight in general. Those three items are my weaknesses and I will have none of them this week.
Ok, must finish watching Castle and then sleep so I can crawl to my workout in the morning. On Monday, Dave kicked my ass in ways I didn't know it could be kicked. I can barely walk today.
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